Admittedly I wrote out probably some of my most hard core feelings yet to have been experienced and it went well from what I can tell. Although I had to leave some of the more serious parts out, I would hope she got the basic gist of what I was trying to say, which was a relief to me. With those situations she could have either done what she did, or I would have felt like a complete moron, and I thank you for that. I don't even remember everything I had written, but I meant every last word; it couldn't be helped as I sat looking over her beautiful sleeping face. The only thing I could have done better was to be there with her, with hopes to be able to caress her with my own hands. I don't know why I feel the way I do. But no matter how much I try to tell her and myself how I should be feeling, how I should be getting away from her, I cant help it. I am where I am, and I'm stuck there. Stuck on her... But not in a creepy stalker way I hope. Only with the utmost love. So I'm going to sit here thinking some more, hoping she never changes her mind and ends up wanting what I want sooner than later. That way we can be together with out her fears of commitment...